In other news. . .

How does Trader Joe's manage to make quality grub for people who barely manage to live paycheck to paycheck? I just devoured a goat cheese and garlic personal pizza accompanied by a glass of flat coca cola, and damn, I'm marveled by the quality of cheap packaged food and the nastiness of flat coca cola. Ek.

Some other things I've marvled by at the current moment:

• The massive bruises on my knees. What was SHE doing? they all stare and wonder. Not what you think, but I can't remember how I got them, so maybe that IS a possibility.
• A former roommate and high school buddy is getting married in a few weeks and just bought a house. She's really short. But I'll keep that marvel for this bullet point as well.
• That I live paycheck to paycheck. Today I had to return $50 worth of nonsense to Target in order to make rent. I think I have $4 left over for milk for my cereal this week.
  
• I get paid little over minimum wage and am a college graduate. This is not such much of a marvel as it is a serious PROBLEM.
• My dad asked me to do some "freelance writing" for him.
  

That last one is pretty marvelous, isn't it? I've always wanted to get paid to write and here I get my chance. Write about 20 architectural or design wonderments in Chicago for a cell phone tour. Easy, right? Of course not. I've never been to Chicago, I barely paid attention in any of my art history classes in college and am so overwhelmed by the thought of having 100s of people actually hear what I've written that I spend more time pulling my hair out. Fortunately for me my boss is my father and he understands my ridiculous insecurities and hasn't put the pressure on. 10 blips instead of 20? That's fine. . .

But c'mon. Shouldn't I be using this as a test? To see if I can really do the whole freelance thing? Don't I want to have a "book" of writing samples to further my desire to become a writer? Shouldn't I prove something to myself? Show myself that I can do it? And do it well!?

Yes. I should. I should stop worry and just do it. No one is an expert. This is my test and I can pass it. The results will be. . .marvelous.