fuck it

i cant sleep. i cant believe that girl from home is already coming to visit him, which makes me think this relationship was more fucked up than anyone could have ever thought. he gets his chance to be free and woah there, he takes it all the way. get over lindsay? fuck that, just fuck some new girl on the sheets we used to sleep in. will lindsay care? fuck it, doesnt matter, she fucked me over so many times, let me get my last revenge with curly blonde cutie. im so angry, so sad, so pissed off, so fuckin hurt, so confused, so hopeless, so furious, so weak. im so sad. it hurts so bad. i cant believe that. i cant get to sleep. i wish i was ten years old again and i didnt have to deal with all this shit. i hate debt i hate boys i hate crying i hate all this shit. its too hard. i just want to go home and hug my dogs. :(